[MegaJIT]

i would like to follow up in this section with a question for those who are willing to answer:

if you feel you are a wanderer, do you have any concept of what you feel is a more natural state for you?
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i dont share that particular experience. what i do share is a feeling that im much more than my physical body, that this body is heavy and limiting. it doesnt help that ive always been kinda sickly.

i would say that the strongest "symptom" of being a wanderer that i can talk about is just simply my disinterest in the world as people understand it. particularly when traveling that will come out most strongly. all my friends will get so excited about going to this or that place and gah-gahing at whatever building and im just not impressed.

a beautiful natural sight can still bring out the wonder in me but for the most part the works of man just dont affect me much. its like im bored with the world, like ive seen much greater sights and i know that they are so close and yet unreachable at this time.

i know how that can sound arrogant but im sharing how i feel inside and im quite shameless about it. i look at people around me and i cant help percieving them as children that are still fascinated by colorful toys. these are things that i work on everyday. it was my choice to come here and i need to take advantage of my stay, not separate myself from by brothers and sisters. that is part of the reason i love this forum and this site. getting a dose of you all helps me deal with the rest of my day.

javier