[KeettyGlots]

Thanks for your support, Oliver.

I guess, if I could prove myself that AP is not scary or that I have some elements of outer astral world in my dreams, then I would be more peaceful. That may be a reason why I am keeping in memory some dream experience which somehow does not fit things that other people tell about dreams or that somehow jump out of my usual sci-fi dreams. Especially I try to not forget dreams that I had before I started reading sci-fi books and before I had heard anything about OBEs and APs, because those early dreams might be induced by some outer force and not just my fantasy.

There are some nights I remember best.

The first - I guess that was my first sleep paralysis experience, I was about 5 years old. In a dream I saw my room, it was dark - as it should be at night - but there was something wrong - some dark shadowy things were climbing the wall near the window. I tried to scream, I saw my parents sleeping in the bed and I thought - why they do not hear me and do not wake me up? I do not remember, how it all ended, most probably I just fell asleep again.

Then my most often nightmares - I was at home, but somehow wall AC sockets started flying out and tried to attach to me and suck energy of me (now it reminds me an episode in R.Monroe book where he tells about some fish-like creatures that attacked him) - not scary, but very unpleasant feeling, or TV set in the guest room turned itself on and tried to pull me somewhere, and I was fighting in a dream to keep where I am, I was holding at every piece of furniture I could, just to avoid being pulled into the guest room. Even now when I see many TV sets in one room in my dreams, I try to change the dream scene. I really have no idea - am I scared of electricity so much or what?

Some years later once I saw a dream about a family party, I was sitting at a table and felt boring. Then I saw a green exercise-book. I took it and tried to open it to read what is inside. Then I heard my grandma waking me up. She was in the other room. Dream scene somehow became flat and I was out of it, but I still was sitting and holding that green exercise-book. I did not want to let it go. I saw the dream scene somewhere far in my room on the wall, the table with dishes, but I was sitting in my room in my bed and completely lucid. I heard my grandma call me again, so I thought – uhh, maybe it is not good to steal this exercise book from my dream, I felt sorry and finally I opened my hand and saw how that exercise-book jumped back into the dream scene on the wall. And then I woke up finally, but for my surprise I was not sitting but lying on my back. In all aspects room seemed the same as I saw it in the dream or whatever it was, the same lighting, shadows and so on. Then I made a conclusion: “I cannot take something from my dreams because then I’ll not be able to wake up” If I had felt those scary vibrations everyone is talking about, I guess, I could think that I had an OBE, but I did not feel anything like that, no vibrations, no noises.

One night I went to bed, closed my eyes, then opened eyes – and it was morning already! I felt I slept well, but really did not feel how time passed by, like I was completely turned off. If this is how all “normal” people sleep, I wish, I had more nights like that

Then the talking to one of my “dream characters”. I became lucid in a dream, after a usual nightmare about magnet-like pulling TVs and flying AC sockets. I saw myself sitting in some park or garden and there was some unknown man, he seemed friendly. I asked “Why do I have such nightmares, is there any way to make things better?” The men did not answer, he just smiled, then he did something with his hands – I do not remember, what exactly – and dream changed to something normal. And the best thing is – I had no more such a fear in my next nightmares, and I guess, that I started to have more lucid dreams since that night. Even if I was not completely aware of my situation, somehow I was able to escape dreams by flying away or wishing myself away, without even realizing, that it is a dream. Whoever was that dream person – my imagination or not, but I am grateful.

Much later, I was about 15 then. Usual dream, and suddenly a bit of lucidity. The dream scene starting to fade away, but there was another scene over it – a big wall with some computer-like devices. I had a feeling that this equipment has something to do with dreams. There were some people working (dream engineers ), one turned at me, he seemed friendly, but a bit surprised, like I should not see that place. He did something on the device, and then I felt that I am lying on the back, but I was not in my bedroom but in some other room of my house. Then something pulled me backwards through walls, one moment I had a feeling that my leg is stuck somewhere, I looked and saw that it is a power cord of my desk lamp in a room next to the bedroom. I reached to free my leg but it was unnecessary, I slipped backwards into my bedroom through the wall and woke up surprised. I had a feeling that I didn’t even have to open my eyes – I was staring at the same wall where I just went through in my dream. Again – no vibrations or feeling that it was more real than my usual dreams, so again I am not sure if it has something to do with OBE.
One night I saw someone in my dream that somehow did not fit in. I asked: “What is your name?” He said “Yar”, smiled at me, went into some room and when I followed, the room was empty.

For some years I had a method how to change a scene during a nightmare – I pushed my dream hand into my head, and usually dream scene changed or I woke up. But one night after doing this, I heard a voice: “Don’t do that”, the dream changed to sleep paralysis, and then I had even worse nightmares. Anyway, after that night I did not use this method to escape nightmares.

And some recent ones. Three years ago I was sleeping in some campus. Before falling asleep, I heard a voice: “This direction is good, that direction is bad” and at the same time I had some picture in front of my eyes with some rotating object – at first rotation to one side, then to the other. The problem – when I woke up, I forgot, which direction was good and which was bad

English is not my native, so usually I see dreams in Latvian. But one week, after watching some movies in English, before waking up some voice said to me in English: “This lesson shouldn’t you forget: the more you wish, the less you get”. I was a bit surprised, I am not even sure that this is grammatically correct, but it sounds really philosophical

I guess, that’s almost all of my best weirdest dreams. Except the latest one, where I tried to prove to myself that I can (or cannot) get some objective information from my dreams. I already have posted it in some other forum, so I’ll just give a link here:

http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welco ... 571.0.html
(I have two long posts in that topic).

Even if it scares me a bit, but somehow I feel better if I can tell about my experience here. I have really no people around me that I could talk to about it. And anyway, I have no proof nor for myself, nor for anyone else, that my dreams are more than just dreams, and I am not even sure if I want to prove that – this could shake me a lot (although maybe that is what I need now – a good shake to start believing myself ).