[Flirigor]

I'm looking for other people's take on this exerience so I can define what it really was. I've only had two prior to this. One I shared on this forum and received a very informative post dealing with OBE and I was convinced that's what it was. In every experience I start in my room (where I fell asleep) and the setting is familiar but stuff just isn't right. There will either be all these lights going everywhere against the walls or a door where it's not supposed to be. One time everything looked messed up like that final scene in pet semetary where they guy goes to find his son in the old man's house. That's how the scene looked but it was my room and there was too much light for that time of night. In every instance I'm concious of being separate from my body and can control where I go. I'm definately floating not walking as in a real dream. I've never seen my own body. Once when I looked down where I was sleeping there were all these mice crawling on the couch and I'm sure they weren't real mice.

The one last night illustrates it best. Ever since this started I've wanted to go to the moon. I dozed off and felt the familiar slipping sideways off my bed (which happens rarely) and I could look around. I tried to move around which is always hard at first. It's like my mind is fighting against some other momentum and I really have to concentrate to go where I want. I explored the house some and then went up. I saw the moon in the night sky and consentrated on moving up and in no time (it seems) I was in space. Still moving toward the moon I came to these satellites but they were more like toys then the real thing. They looked like plastic robots a kid would play with. I went to one and actually moved it some I think. I saw my own hands but they were going through it and couldn't really grab ahold of it like air or water. I finally came to what I thought the moon was but it wasn't right at all. It was just like a big soft white ball but with no craters. In fact I couldn't see the surface. It was as if it had a thick white atmostphere and there was also this material that looked like a torn membrane or how old spider webs look which I passed as I got closer. The closer I got the more aware of my physical body I became and I knew I wanted to wake soon. I could hear my breathing becoming more rapid in bed even though I was seeing this scene and once I was ready to wake I just shook my head physically to wake up. There was also this hard music that became louder the closer I came to the moon and to waking.

I'm having a hard time seeing these experiences as OBE because it seems like the whole thing is maybe a lucid dream based on my real surroundings projected by imagination and memory. I looked outside afterwards and the moon wasn't even visible in reality. So I can't possibly have gone out and seen it in the sky. If that's the case though I wonder why the moon didn't look like it should--if that's how I remember it. Thanks for any responses.