[MasdMnPa]

I constantly have this "dream".. It happens about once every week if not more. I don't try to do this, and it has started happening since I had taken a more conscious effort to control my dreaming. I guess I got tired of getting hurt/killed in my dreams

OK.. This is what happened.. Or what usually happens.. I think I wake up. Everything as it is supposed to be, and I really do think I am awake. I go to walk down the stairs, and I see my dad at the counter. I was staying over at my parents house helping my dad to put a roof on a shed, and took a nap on the couch. Anyhow, I see my dad, and right as I get to the bottom of the stairs my OBE turns black and white, and all of a sudden like being on a rubber band I start getting pulled back up to where I was sleeping. Also it's like there is a vortex or something up there where my body is because I see black particles and what looks like wind blowing dust back to where my body is. I could "see" the wind sucking back up the stairs to my body. I always scream in my dream when this happen because I get pulled back rather violently. It feels like I am being launched on one of those reverse bungee cord rides or something. It's like 0-100 MPH in 1 second literally. All this wind which I can see is flowing back to my body, and all these weird looking things that are about the size of leaves are blowing back the way I came.

Anyhow, I wake up for real then.... It's weird because I can never get more than about 15ft away from my body, and I cannot control when it does and doesn't happen. I always think I am awake when I have an OBE until I start getting pulled back. Everything I see is always in it's place when I awake. Like today my father was standing at the counter when I went downstairs after my OBE. The dog was laying on the couch as he was when I got to the bottom of the stairs. There were only minor differences in the arrangements of things like a weird latch on the gate we have up for the dogs so they do not go upstairs. There is no latch on the real gate. And the clock was missing from the wall.

What's happening to me? Anyone have this very same dream? Is it as violent when you are getting pulled back to your body as mine are?

EDIT: I starting having this type of "dream" when I started to try to control things after getting killed a lot in my dreams. I have had sleep issues ever since I could remember. It would take hours to fall asleep (if at all) and sometimes I would go a couple days w/o sleeping. I have tried all meds, but am not currently on any type of meds to help me sleep. I do not take any kind of drugs either. These weird OBEs started happening about a year and a half to two years ago, and it would always be the same thing. I would feel as if I am really awake and would get up only to have my body pulled back to where I was sleeping about 10-15 seconds after getting up never getting more than 15-25ft away from my body. I would NEVER see my own body laying there, but there would be this "wind" that would blow to where I guess my body would be. Most of the time I see something it is there after I awake.

I am really interested on seeing how far I can go with this. I would love to have some of the experiences that some of you have. I know not everyone can do what I do so I would like to see how far I can take this w/o hurting myself. Is there any clubs or anything that can help me do this on my own terms rather than a random once a week type thing?

2ND EDIT: Forgot to say this part I think.. When I awake into my OBE (which I think I am really awake) it's this weird tingling sensation all over my body right before I awake into my OBE. Kind of like when you force yourself to wake up from a bad dream except I have this tingling sensation all over my body and it's the most focused in my head. I don't know what to make of all this as this is the first time I am asking others about this, and I don't know if what I am having is an OBE or just a bad dream.