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Well, my first interpretation would be that you're rebelling against 'conventional' thinking, even though you value it. The way I see it, the part of you that is in charge of linear 'logical' thinking is rebelling and trying to take control (as it should, I might add, being the part that does this sort of thing) of your thinking, but the emotional/intuitive side of you is winning, I think. Ideally, both parts will find a way to coexist peacefully.
And yes, I do believe you phased into a learning environment.
Interesting, my dear Watson....