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oh yeah! you're recently married aren't you?
so is that how it went? - was your first meeting astral?or had you met physically before?
i'm very interested in this topic - soulmates.many years ago i saw a girl,and time stood still.i was overwhelmed by a feeling i had never experienced before.it felt like the cosmos was telling me something.not just telling me but SHOUTING it at me!
i knew in that moment that she was "the one" i stopped my work,and watched her through the window,the street was crowded but it was like no-one else was there.as she went out of view i came back to where i had been and continued my work,still with this intense feeling inside.
now this is where it got wierd - a friend of mine who worked in a store further up the street,came into my work to see me.she asked me if her place offered me a job,would i take it?i went to have a chat with her boss that lunch time,and walked away having taken the offer of the job.
a week later i started the new job,and on my second day there,i saw her!she worked in that very shop!!
i couldn't believe it!the universe had thrown us together.

our relationship quickly became very intense,tho we didn't actually get together.she was still very young,and already involved with someone.still our relationship deepened,it's hard to describe how intense it was.
for about a year,i was being torn apart by my feelings for this girl,and tho she felt very strongly for me,she wouldn't leave the other guy.it really was hard for me to deal with,but i had to respect her loyalty.
after too long a time of emotional battering,i realised i had to let go of her.it was messing with me too much.somehow i managed to switch off my feelings,or at least hid them from myself.soon i let something develop between myself and another girl i knew.
as soon as this happened,"the one" cut me from her life completely.she wouldn't return my calls,and her best friend told me she didn't want to be friends with me any more.that was heart breaking,but i took her reaction as a sign that she actually DID feel so strongly about me that she couldn't deal with me being with someone else.if only she'd given me an opportunity to talk,things may have turned out very different.

it's been 10 years since then,but i've never lost the feeling that she actually IS the one.i've been involved with girls since,but never been able to fully commit,because at the back of my mind,she's always there.i've NEVER felt for anyone,what i felt for her.
2 or 3 times a year,i meet her in dreams,and it's always the same.i'll see her and say "hey,i've been waiting for you.is it time for us yet?"
unfortunately i never get a straight answer from her.

so what's up with that?is she a soulmate?i cannot explain how strong that feeling i got was.it was like god had decided to take up residence inside me.
or am i just kidding myself and need to finally let go of her completely.i've always felt that one day i'll bump into her in the street,and then...