[Seerseraxlils]

Well, isn't it funny that I spend a month working on my energy and reading all of these books and LOW AND BEHOLD, my girlfriend projects. lol

She told me of her experience, I will try to recite her experience as best I can.

She lied on her bed for about an hour and thiry minutes. Her body did not move once despite the random urges to scratch parts of her body that had an itch. She focused on clearing her mind, and she focused on her breathing. She said that for a good portion of the time that she was on her bed she would have her eyes closed (duh) and she wouldn't be looking at the back of her eyelids, as in she wouldn't be looking at the black behind her eyes. She tried over and over to explain to me that she would be using her mind's eye to look at her room without looking at it, but she would just see black because she's in her physical body. WTF. She said that when she does this she gets a sort of pressure on her forehead or on the back of her head...depending on how she's doing "it".

She continued to lay on her bed and after a while she got kind of frustrated. She thought to herself, "I'm trying too hard and I've been lying still for too long." Soon she just says she wants to be free, as I had said when I was trying to project. So she figures that shes working to hard, so she lets go. She said that she "trusted herself" and just let go. She was lying down and all of a sudden she was sitting upright. She didn't remember sitting upright. She goes to touch her eyes, but w/e touched her eyes, not her physical hands, it felt that eyelids were shut. So she said that everything was gray save for a blue light in the topmost corner of her room. She said she also saw some type of bar. The blue light freaked her out and she woke up.

SO! It seems that I am the only bloody person that can't project!!! Damnit! But my girlfriend is kind of afraid about what happened.

Now, she tried for a long time to describe to me that you don't look at the back of your eyelids, that you try to use your mind's eye to see your room, but you won't see anything because you're in your body. Now, I said that if I try to see my room, I'll see it. Because...I guess I can imagine it. She said if she doesn't know that that's right. She said that when she is looking at this "black" her mind is "opening up" and she could hear that sound. The sound that you hear when your eyes are shut really tight, you hear that sound in your ears...yea...

So she's telling me that if I can try and look at nothing instead of lookin at the back of my eyes, I will be able to project better, possibly. She thinks that by looking with your minds eye at nothing, at blackness, almost trying to see your room, that you are clearing your mind.

I'm finding it difficult to close my eyes and not look at the back of my eyelids and use my minds eye to look at nothing and clear yourmind.

She tried to describe it like you're watching a movie and your eyelids are drooping and becoming very heavy, when you clothes your eyes, you're kind of looking at nothing, not even the back of your eyelids.

Well, I'm having trouble see what she's trying to explain. Any comments about her projection or what she's trying to explain to me?

Thank you, in advance.