[Faungarne]

Thanks, yes, the heart chakra is especially interesting. I've actually read through Astral Dynamics after the experience, and it was very interesting to see what I had gone through written in plain text. Something that is obviously natural, but completely ignored by any literature that I grew up with.

I've been thinking lately about why I wasn’t able to project since that time. To project is really not the main issue here, it is more about getting in touch with deeper parts of myself, and projection becomes available sort of as a side-effect (not to diminish it’s wonder). So in my meditations and in my daily life I’m hitting the same block that underlies all of my struggles. I’ve been discovering that fear and desire come from the same place, and that I end up in the same place from both of them. I have a pattern that tries to deny fears and desires. In my meditations, when I come to the threshold of shifting my awareness from my physical body to deeper states, a moment later a desire comes up that is very excited about it and wants to explore it deeper. It is a very deep and passionate desire that I have, and I suppress it. I try to ignore it. Actually, I end up suppressing it even more, because last time that happened, the desire threw me back into my “normal” state of mind. So I’m afraid that it will do the same. Fear of desire, hah! I love it, totally insane!

It's been very interesting to explore this - there are so many layers of awareness.

Love & Light,
Andrey.