[adesseridopaw]

Hi and thanks for the response.

I think i'm scared to sleep because they keep happening more and more and like u said, less sleep makes them worse. I'm such a big chicken when it comes to the unknown and the physical feelings are so uncomfortable that I just panic, I can't help it..... and there is this little girl.

I have seen her 3 times in the last 2 years, and just heard her voice once. The first 2 times I just assumed I was starting to dream again before I was all the way asleep (as I usually do). She had on a yellow cotton dress with a ribbon in her hair. She had no expression she just looked at me. The third occasion she woke me up tapping my shoulder hard and then grabbed onto my shoulders tightly from behind with both hands and yelled "you hate your life" twice. I was sitting up in bed and she still had ahold of my shoulders when I grabbed her hands and threw her away, she disappeared as as she went over my head. Our last encounter was just her voice but she said "Don't cry mommy" These events would not be so upsetting except that I was awake during all of them.

So in answer to your question, this is why I fight going to sleep, and eventually pass out, and have more occurances. I will try the relaxation and energy work. I just need reassurance that I'm going to be ok if I ride it out.

Ive been a lucid dreamer my entire life and I love it. It's like having a second life in another world where u control everything. The best part is flying on demand. I've see the stars from space, it's truely amazing. If only my apparent OBE's were like that, I would get alot more sleep.

Thanks Again
Ely