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I have a rather odd problem.

During the day, I'm almost always tired. Whenever I'm totally tired and lay down and close my eyes, I feel like I have lost awareness- and I can sometimes see parts of my room through the blackness of my eyelids. I know this is an etheric body thing, but what scares me is, it's like I just have no awareness of anything. Not even me. I cease to consciously know where I am, who I am, that I even exist. Some thoughts remain, though, and I can still snap out of it and open my eyes, but I am wondering how to get this under control.

I know I am close to projecting when this happens, but why do I lose all self-awareness? And how can I get it under control?

The past few nights, I've just let it go, fallen asleep, and woke up fine.

But it is still somewhat terrifying to lose self-awareness...