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Back to the subject, I've always been a bit leary of channelers. The question always arises, is the information really coming from the self-proclaimed source or not? For the same reason, I'm usually a bit leary of mediums. I've had readings done and I've heard (in person) some pretty famous channelers. It's fun, it's interesting, sometimes rather amazing, but I never hang my hat on it.

Regarding mediums, I have to say that I've had some readings done that my only conclusion could be that it was my mother and my father who were coming through. Much of the reading could be due to ESP. But, in both cases, information came through that was absolutely not in my head, but it was so dead on with the conclusions. To give an example, I spent a week in a Spiritualist camp in New York. I saw five different semi-well known mediums (no, not tv mediums). They all gave info on my mother and father, mostly because I asked for it. The one reading that really stood out, because it was so out of left field, was from my mother. Notice how I say, "Mother"? We were not close. She didn't abuse me, she was just a very formal and aloof person. Someone you would feel strange calling "Mom". This wasn't just me, my brother and sister also called her "Mother". But, "Dad" was "Dad" or "Daddy".

Growing up, I was Daddy's "Dolly". He adored me. I was the baby of the family, and he spoiled me. My Mother actually told me that she did not want a third child, and was angry the entire 9 months that she carried me. True to form, she would then try to cover up the insult with, "But, sometimes surprises can be rather nice". I never bought into it, and could never figure out why it always felt like she was pushing me away when she was hugging me. In a psychology class, we were told of a study done with gorillas, a baby gorilla was put in a pen with a mock-up of a mother gorilla. It was actually a dummy with milk baby bottles and nipples placed where the real nipples would be. The dummy was also spiked with barbs so that when the baby would nurse, it would have to endure not only not being held, but there were barbs implanted in the dummy. A control was set up in another identical pen with another fake, soft mother gorilla and a live baby. This one had the fake nipples, but not the barbs. The result was that the baby gorilla with the soft mother turned out normal. The baby with the barbed mother went insane. As soon as I read about that study, I thought, "That's exactly how I felt with my mother. There were barbs in her."

Back to the reading. The second to last reading, the medium told me that my mother had been cold to me most of my life. Ok, that could be ESP. Duh! But, what almost tumbled me out of the chair with the AHA!!!.....the medium told me my mother was saying that she had always been jealous of me. Ok, so that could be ESP, and a logical, possible conclusion. Although I'd never actually thought that she was jealous. What convinced me that it really was my mother was when "mother" said she had been jealous of me because I always stood up for myself. NOT because she was jealous of my dad's attention. She said she had spent her entire life being, in her words, "A Stepford Wife". She always did what was expected of her. She put on the pretty face and nice smile while she was slowly dying inside. She saw that when I wanted something, I went for it, no matter the cost. I was brave and fearless of any consequences (her words).

Ok, so how could a medium come up with something that not only was not in my conscious thoughts, ever, but put into perspective and explained every little nuance, every argument, everything that was our relationship. It was like a math problem. You work and work to get the answer, try different methods, they seem like they will get to the answer, and never do. Then, one day, the answer magically appears in your brain, and the problem is solved. AHA!!

So, I'm still skeptical of mediums and channelers. But, this huge thing that had affected me all my life was understood, (and forgiven, by the way) with a couple of sentences from a medium. I leave open the possibility that people do come through from the afterlife through gifted people.

On a funny note, when I asked the last medium if she could speak to my mother, this was what I got..."You've been given enough information this week about me. I'm done talking". True to form, that sounded like my mother.