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I also had good experiences on mushrooms, but nothing I'd want to repeat now.

My own 'universe-encompassing' experience was not the same as yours, because my perspective remained earthbound and I did not go out of body.

Essentially what I had been doing for a while up to then was working kind of opposite to OBE - finding good energies, then bringing these energies back down to earth (within a magic circle) and grounding them in various ways. Obviously bringing them into the energy body is one way, but another is storing them in a herbal alchemical mixture where they can be used for healing and magic. Still another is to find a spirit in OBE and then bring the spirit to earthplane, etc.

Anyhow, I had found a place that very much resembles one described by William Buhlman - a huge light, which as I started to enter into it began to burn away all my concepts of self, all my thoughts. After a while I realized it was a sort of sun light, very healing. Who knows what would have happened if I'd have headed into whilst OBE, something pretty lovely I'm sure, although whether technically 'samadhi' or not I couldn't say.

However, I decided to try and contact it whilst in body, my normal practice at the time. I set everything up and just kind of contacted in my mind the place where this great light was, without leaving my room. I began to work with it and brought more and more of it down. I was so in love with what I was experiencing that I guess I overdid it and brought so much of it down that I became overfull and (as a healer has since pointed out) damaged my aura.

For the rest of that day, whenever I would look at anyone it was as if I was seeing how they were connected to God... you probably can follow what I mean. I was grinning like crazy and what's more everyone grinned back.

I started to notice negative thoughts taking the state away on the following day, and headaches began the day after. 'Ah well,' I thought, 'it didn't last but it was good'. However the problem was that not only did the feeling go away, the thoughts got way more negative... everywhere I went I realized how I was screwing myself and I was in constant fear after a while as well as trembling all the time.

BTW some very interesting side effects came from this, for example I gave myself sunburn later on just by thinking of the experience. It happened twice, and both times it was winter in London. Luckily it went away within 10 minutes, or it would've been hard to explain, but while it lasted it was all over the yang skin of my body, especially shoulders, and my face was beetroot-red, plus I had a heat rash, and even felt tired as after a day in the sun.

I now realize that we block ourselves from constant experience of this beauty, and that this one earthly taste of it brought to light (literally!) everything in me that was stopping it from being there constantly; all of my faults came up and bit me at once!

Since then I have been healing in various ways, and have done little magic and no OBE - but that is all set to change this year, so yay for me! I have finally realised that the energy can be brought down and assimilated over time, and that the vibrations can be used to project. I've made a couple of experiments and my guides and me are healing up the last things that stand in the way of the next adventure...


Sorry to babble on. First time I've told that story actually - it may be what I signed onto this forum to do. Thanks very much for listening!

Best NN