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I see some of you have read my message but there's no replies yet. Perhaps it's a wait-and-see situation (a Christian, will she last (?)or is she a fake (?) or other reasons such as those)...

I just don't know what to think about the supernatural training and practices etc. anymore. I've read so much and some of it makes a lot of sense, as I recognize some side-effects and consequences of my new found interest and experimentations. But I have a stubborn tendency of not wanting to do things the way others do, direct or advice, so I guess I get just what I deserve!

Haven't had any luck OBEing lately, but have felt new sensations (like my body stretching etc) and become fatiqued or nauseated after some of the attempts. You see, I hate to give up so I may keep trying for hours. Well, it's not unusual for me to stay in a dream-like state all day long, so maybe it's just me.

My husband, on the other hand, is experiencing symptoms while at work and it's interfering so much that I think maybe I better quit this quest of mine. I read about the "cords" and most definetely my hubby has some (the emotional kind) affecting him in very strong ways. For example, whenever I have PMS, he gets very emotional, bloated and experiences cramping that's probably just as painful as what I'm having. Any other condition applies as well. (I think he's an empath more so than I).
This emotional cord seems to be a one way attachment, because I don't feed from him... Usually I can endure a lot when it comes to pain and other things, so maybe he receives some of the things that won't bother me the least bit.

Lately he's been feeling very dizzy and nauseous at the times I'm attempting to project, experiencing pain above the navel area, between the ribs. He thinks it maybe an ulcer or something. Another symptom is this continuous rash. It's not red or infected, just raised bumps on the skin surface that itch like the dickens.

Yesterday, I almost ran over the neighbor's dog as his owner was walking him by the roadside. The dog was on a leash so I was driving normal as always. All of a sudden he walks right towards the center of the road, as I approach. I swerve and probably missed the dog merely by a couple of inches. There's about 15ft. drop to a canal on the other dide, so lucky I did not end up down there. I went to chat with the neigbor and the dog whimpered and acted somewhat weird towards me.

That reminds me of another incident years ago. I was out walking, quietly singing a hymn when this big dark dog appeared and silently followed me, right at my heels. I felt a cold fear wash over my whole body. I kept singing though, and after walking a block or two with the dog breathing at my heels, it suddenly turned and went the other way. I wonder if this is one of those core images I should deal with...

Gotta answer the phone, be right back...