[Les Allen]

Hi all.

I have been fascinated with “seeing” energy for a very long time. It is not something I talk about to anybody, but I am currently going through a belief system crisis, where I find that I can’t believe what I once believed, and that I don’t know what I should believe unless I can some how validate something to my satisfaction. (Or the satisfaction of my reasoning) The reason this is so important to me at this time is that I seem to have run into a brick wall in projection attempts. I went from a peak of obe’s down to no obe’s. I was up to 18 a month at one point, at a seeming spiritual peak. Then I began to doubt the validity of the event, and began comparing it more so to lucid dreaming. This restructuring took about 3 years. To my horror I could not stop my doubts, even though I knew it was going to affect my ability. The skeptics had worked one over on me.

When I do reality checks daily, I can have 5-10 Lucid dreams a month. They have even increased in duration; I think I’m getting calmer internally as I get older. I haven’t really been doing reality checks lately though, I’m doing the 90-day program, and I’m currently on day 47. It has taken me about 3 months to get to day 47. (I’m a busy guy) 3 months without an obe is unheard of for me since I started having them. I have decided to put the program on pause and do some belief system soul searching.

For a person who wants to validate this type of experience and who “sees” energy, or has astral sight, there is only one place to start, since seeing equals believing. So I have decided to start with the energies I can see, and try to channel these energies in some manner that leads to an obe. Then validate that obe by gleaning something concrete from it, say information of some type that can be validated when awake. I guess one way to do this is the card trick, put a card on the window and have an obe, go to the card and remember what it is then check it when awake. But first, I need to get back to the core of my beliefs, since I can’t seem to get out of body at the moment.

This is where I could use some input from others. If I describe what and how I see energy, and other people have similar experiences, it will help to somewhat validate the reality that I am seeing energy, and don’t just have a quirky imagination. Any input or help would be greatly appreciated, and would also contribute vastly to my soul searching. Also, any tips on manipulating the energy that is seen could prove valuable and experiential. Which could in turn lead to the basis for restructuring and rebuilding my belief system.

Since I see energy all the time (used to think I was crazy), this foundation will prove unshakeable once it’s in place, thereby allowing me more control over experiences that involve the energy body. At least that’s my theory.

Okay, now I will attempt to describe the manner in which I see energy.
Everything I look at has a translucent aura around it, like a clear whitish substance. This aura is usually fairly close to the object or person, from like 1/8th an inch to 1 inch. I have seen it expand when people are very relaxed, sleeping, sedated, or drunk. Tiny particles of energy move through this aura, like particles of light. They are basically clear whitish or golden. But have shades of colors, or intensities attached to them. Blue, green, red, orange, purple, pink, yellow, and black are fairly common. These tiny particles are constantly moving. If I try to gaze into something deeper, like inside an object, I see something similar, although the movement seems different.

These tiny particles are also outside everything, in the air around us, continually moving, jumping, darting, swirling, and jetting, all over the place in a manner that reminds me of organized chaos. They flow from the deepest parts of the universe and ceaselessly bombard the earth and every organic, inorganic, sentient being, and object around.

Around people there is usually and outer shell, say 1-½ feet around the entire body in all directions. It seems to actually be like a container for the tiny energetic particles within. There is usually a bright point of intensity within it that seems to reflect the awareness of people respectively. For example, someone with a bright, large point of intensity is usually very aware and involved, and the particles within are also brighter as a rule. People, whom have very dull points, are boring, tired, ambitionless, and un-evolved. This point is usually fixed, but I have seen it move around and even emit particles of whitish, intense energy within the aura. The shell often has filaments of mass floating through it, that are often formed in shapes or patterns, such as, L shapes, u shapes, or three dots in a triangular pattern. Or weird squiggles and other various patterns and shapes. Difficult to describe, but anyone who sees similar things may understand immediately my meaning. Kind of hoping so actually, as this will validate that what I see is also seen by someone else, and perhaps not just the product of overwhelming “new age” imagination.

More often than not, I have no idea what any of what I see actually means or represents.

One of the reasons I love raising energy and stimulating charkas is that I have noticed more detail in what I see since I have been stimulating the third eye charka. That and it feels good and often gives me full body chills.
Any way, this is an extremely long-winded post so I ought to cut it short.

To summarize:

1. I am looking for ways to manipulate energy that is seen with astral sight and channel it into having an obe, to prove that the energy I see is a real and functional part of existence.

2. I am curious if anyone sees energies and auras in a fashion similar to what I have described, and am interested in the details.

3. I would love to hear about any techniques that begin from a point of seeing energy and evolve into a provable energy experience. (I’ll probably have to make something up then try it, but I’d love some input)

4. I would appreciate any and all replies and input, and thank anyone in advance for reading this entire rambling (yet focused) post.