[objennasweene]

When I try to project, I get to the vibes then as I go deeper into trance I hear this loud rip like a needle on a record but louder and deeper. The strange thing is only I hear it and that is where my trance is broken and I return to normal. I induce my trances by using the brainwave generator (a great tool) that uses sounds, maybe when I start to project the sound becomes distorted? I don't feel any exit or reintegration but after that I continue to have a fast heartbeat. Maybe I did project but I didn't remember it or as it says in the Astral Dynamics book "download the shadow memory." I am afraid of what keeps happening, yet I am intrigued by it nonetheless. Maybe this is one of the effects of the mind-split? I want to be able to successfully project without having to induce trance onto myself with a steady hum of white noise. I have never successfully projected, meaning if I have projected I have never remembered it. There was this one time though when I was 2 years old that I remember that I projected, I didn't realize I had projected until now. I had just broken my tender skull open and was bleeding and was being rushed to the hospital, my mom was beggin me not to go to sleep but I found it hard to keep my eyes open and soon closed them only to find myself fully awake again and fully energetic and moving around, but until now I didn't notice that my mom didn't notice that I was moving around, because in reality I wasn't butI was actually projecting and trying to calm down my mothers worry stricken mind with assurements that I would stay alive for her. I also remember being able to fully comprehend more than I do now before I turned 4, I even remember the events that followed my birth up until my age of 3, which my 3rd year of being alive is a total mystery to me because I do not remember any of it. Anyways, I go off from one topic to another, please excuse this. o^.^o