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to Brettb:
In some cases I do, well why would i be so interested in this stuff if im scared of it? Because your fear puts your attention on it, and attention is interest. If you weren't at least a little bit apprehensive, you probably would think it's boring and wouldn't bother with it. It's just like watching scary movies: All of those that like them- all gravitate towards different scary type of movies- some like 'vampire' type, some 'slasher' type, some 'zombie' like. Guess why? Because there's something in each person's mind that somehow can identify with the bad guy and it's a safe way to experience it- If you're afraid of vampires, you can get over by watching someone being victimized by one (and feel good it's not you) but also you can get some sort of secret thrill imagining you're the one doing the attacking- even if in your conscious life you would think 'no, I would never be like that.' That's why horror movies are so popular. the same with this type of experience. You got to admit, the fear makes it exciting- but you want to watch it- that 'secret thrill' can attract certain things (regardless of origin) so you have to look inside yourself and analyze everything you know about yourself to see if you can handle what can happen.
Even people who project spontaneously and have been doing so since childhood (like me) have to do this- you can see why in my early posts.
So have fun- and be safe.

ps. I have met people who don't like scary movies- and I don't understand them!