[Jeffery]

I understand this and even said as much "could have just been something playing the part". yes it seems unlikely that I saw the real thing. however a couple of reasons why I think to the contrary. first of all as soon as I was coaxed into the bathroom, and closed my eyes the voices went nuts, as if they were terrified of something. now this could be seen as a neg just playing with me tryin to get me to be afraid. then the apparition appeared and there was a moment of complete terror at facing ones own mortality.

once again the sheer imagie can be enough to inspire this. however at no time during any of the ramblings of the voices or my own train of thought in dealing with them had death in any form come up. so this would be coming out of left field if a neg was doing it.

then there was the act of death hitting me with his scyth. it happened so fast I couldn't have reacted if I wanted to. when he landed that blow, it hit something insde of me (not in the physical). it was as if the scyth rebounded off a cord inside of me, (the image that came to mind at the time was a golden cord/string/thread inside of my body). it was a quite profound experiance.

now all of this seems crazy I understand, but it's what happened. I talked to my fathers friend about all of this. I have talked to her about alot of things, she is quite adept at going astral and all of that, as a matter of fact she flys around as a dragon most of the time or a half woman/dragon, usually without even thinking because she has become so used to the form. basicly she knows the ropes and how to defend herself.

either way when I recounted the experiance for her she told me thats deaths way of saying hello and letting you know it's not your time. she has spoken to death on many occasions, and said most likely he was letting me know something was going to change in my life. and I guess looking back, the spontanious OBE's and lucid dreams and all that really started happening alot after that. so that was a pretty big change.

I understand you might not believe and you don't have to. if it was a neg, well they pulled off the act very well even though I don't think a neg would have hit me I think neg simply would have stood there and said boo and tried to get me to run. either way it was a profound experiance and alot has changed since then, some good some bad. but it was deffinately a turning point in my life.