so im kind of facing a dilemma like in the movie, "The Matrix", Neo, the main character, wants to find out of this world is real or fake, then someone, Morpheus, says he can show him the door, but only Neo can open it. When he finds out the real world is a fake, he freaks out and doesn't believe it. After awhile, he accepts it. So the question comes down to this...red pill or blue pill lol