[pimbertiemoft]

@ angie, i hear you so clearly. both the wanting your Mojo and unbelievable stress and fear about your new baby. and i too believe to be a good mom you have to be good to your self. i hear you...we have to be good examples for our kids in every way. emotionally and physically model for them the proper life style that we want for them! but i couldn't do that when i'm over weight, inactive and depressed. not only did my child's father abandon me 3 months into our PLANNED pregnancy, he abandoned my poor baby, knowing i don't have a family to help us at all! Then my closest, beloved, dearest, more than a sister, best friend of 19 years died right after my baby was born and i almost gave up. but because my own mom died when i was 15 and had such a terrible time coping & living without her, i knew i couldn't let my son go through his life with out a mom. so i kept going. and finally after about 4 years i actually have real hope and the confidence i just couldn't find before. And believe it or not, this protocol gave it to me! i too believe in it so much, i know it's a life changing miracle!
and so i did good for a few weeks and screwed up the rest...just wouldn't stop cheating. mine where night time binging on sweets before bed. probably the same thing that has kept me fat these last 5 years.

Ryann really made a lot of sense to me. And this point struck me; "The other side of that is that cheats are FAR more punishing since we are including HCG. When someone cheats on this diet, deep down they know that the consequences could have a very negative impact on them not just the next day, but for the next several which impacts the whole diet since we are only on for a certain amount of days."

Personally that is where i'm at today. So i've decided to take a 2 week break so i don't get immunity. i mentioned this on Nic's page.
i'd like to send you some info i learned last night. i'll try to send you it in a private message.
And @Julie said to try journaling... that sounds like a real good idea. at least in my case. i've had to realize there needs to be behavior changes at night before bed. Maybe writing will distract me? i'm gonna try it tonight!
Julie also mentioned a cleanse, sounds like another good idea! i haven't done it before and don't know how to, but if you have or know of one let me know.

also, about losing your partner, even though we aren't physically in each other's mugs, we could certainly still partner! cas i know i need one too.! plus we are pretty much at the same starting point. let's talk about it, if you want... i'll message you in a lil bit. gotta run do some errands.
WE CAN DO THIS! we already have once, so lets just figure out our next move!
XOXO, shannon