[PriniMai]

I appreciate your points of view MuffinMan but you're not reading this with an open heart. You're still reading it and replying to it like I was the one that hurt you so bad. That's the mentality that is going to make this idea impossible.

The difference is the conscience. A man that doesn't drink on purpose is better than a man that doesn't give a shi.t about the consequences. I DO choose to walk another path, because the old behaviors were only habit. I'll be better one day just as long as I do not digress. This horrible person I've become was created simply because of ease. It is easy to be selfish and inconsiderate.

It takes an EFFORT for anyone to care about someone else. So I am making the choice to stop only caring about me and to care about others. Yes, my primary focus is my girlfriend. But these changes I'm making are going to span throughout all of my relationships.

I don't know what else to say... I just wish that I wouldn't keep hitting a wall after I think I turn the right direction. I'm only talking about here, of course. My life is going great and my relationship is getting stronger, everyday.

I hope I'm not kicked off of here. I really like this site. I just wish people were more helpful instead of hurtful.