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I didnt think I could be this much of a wreck I found out recently from a boyfriends now pregnant ex girlfriend that the one night stand they had was a 4 month relationship. He told me about the sex and then two weeks later told me about the baby..which he is glad about.. he says he wants me back and I want that too but I dont know how people get past this stuff he's in Florida Im in NH and we were together for ten years before this we had problems butu he said he was coming back and then this happened...he blamed me cause I wouldnt marry him before but he worked intermitantly and was never solid and my ex husband and I had a horrible marriage and I was afraid. I know how sordd this all sounds but I really love him cant imagine my life forever without him as rediculous as that may seem..I need some advice