[Jenisoisy]

She came here last night to use my computer and my land line.
3 phones on her lap, all beeping.
Said she was going to spend the night but after a phone call she was gone in a heartbeat.
She placed a craigslist personal and has replied to over 30 guys, gave most of them her cell number(s) (has 2 cell phones)..
In two weeks time she has become a wreck.
I have no family left so I am alone although I have friends who drop by.
I could put on a good drunk but that just makes things worse.
I start getting better then she comes over or calls and I revert.
She is screwing around with a lot of people, not just one.
Her reason for leaving was so she could screw around with many guys.
I finally got it through my head that there is no hope.
We have two choices.
To survive or to not survive.
I choose to survive but it ain't easy.
I am far better off without her.
I am having hotdogs for thanksgiving dinner.
Fast and easy.
Hang in there people...things will get better.

Pt