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I have been married 14 years and we both have cheated throughout our marraige we forgave eachother numerous of time. 1 year ago after dealing with past issues I had since a child and finally forgiving my dad for things that happen, I changed and truly wanted my marraige to work. I thought we were getting along our marraige finally felt like one, sex was great and I truly forgave and fell in love with him again. He left town a lot because he fixes houses well one night after he came back from his travels he was sleeping and his phone rang they left a message and was able to retrieve. It was a women telling him she missed him.I also read text messages from her. My world fell apart, I confronted him he yelled at me for looking through his phone. We have 2 kids together and he tried throwing me out but I refused and stayed. It was hell living there we were like roommates. One day he just said I'm sorry that he loved me and he left her.we tried but I couldn't forget and now we are going through a divorce. I am now having an affair with a married man and I am getting very attached to him. What the hell I'm I doing? I know its wrrong but can't seem to walk away. I'm so confused and hurt, I still love my husband so much but I know its over.my kids are suffering especially my 13 year old son. I'm a mess depressed angry and the only time I forget and feel a little better is when I'm with this married man.I want my husband back but I can't trust him anymore even though he says I'm sorry and wants me back. Its been 14 years if we didn't make it right than what's makes me think anything is different now?