I have 5 grown up children; two daughters and three sons. One daughter speaks to me, and the other one won't because I abandoned Christianity. One son refuses to talk to me, and the other two will sometimes, but not often. No, I haven't gotten remarried but I would like to. About 5 years ago I meet a sister through some friends. We wanted to get married. I knew her father and brother at the mosque. When her and the wali contacted them. They refused to even meet with me. I wasn't from her country or tribe. Plus, I was white. I was really blown away. They are known at the masjid to be a really religious family. But chose culture over Deen. It was my first experience with racism between muslims. Before that I naively believed that there was No racism in Islam. Took me about a year to recover from that situation. I basically have been reluctant to try again.