Your story is very inspirational brother revert! Please do visit the forum and let us know if/when you have finished writing your book insha'alla. I want to read more!! Insha'allah hope you can find some solace in the following quote ... I know I did. "Know that what has passed you by was never to befall you... And (know that) what has befallen you was never to have passed you by... And know that victory accompanies perseverance, relief accompanies affliction, and ease accompanies hardship..."