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This is an unusual post but i'm really desperate, i need forgiveness from Allah, but i cant find the words i'm full of regret but this is just too many times and im too ashamed now, i cant bring myself to make a sincere dua'a for forgiveness, if you guys can please take out two minutes and make a sincere dua for me, may Allah forgive me and that he grants me good ikhlaaq please, i'm really messed up, i cant think straight and i dont have the nerve to ask anyone from my family anyway Jazak Allah Khairan n

sister, you're not alone in feeling this way. May Allah (SWT) accept yours, mine and all of our tawba's and grant us good ahlak.

Sister, try to do this:

• recite sayyidul-istighfar after fajr and maghrib (fardh) every day (I try to recite it 3x after each). It only takes a small amount of time to do this. Try to ponder on the meaning as you recite it (I try to read the translation as I recite the Arabic).
• do dhikr with tasbih saying 'astaghfirullah' 100x per day - from your heart, with feeling, with fear. It does not take very long to do. As you say 'astaghfirullah' think back on your life and those moments you are sincerely remorseful about, all those moments/things you are making tawba for and asking Allah (SWT) for forgiveness.
• This is just a little something extra: astaghfirullah