I feel this way because everything here is fake and with kuffr. What im looking for is places to visit/learn/live and just be with muslims. I also have a problem praying in masjids due to the fact that they pray northeast (dont attack me, there are much better reasons islamically to pray southeast from what i know) and just the many salafis preaching distortions and corrupt aqeedah. Had allah not protected me with the good fortune of an ahlesunnah teacher and family, with an exception (one of my uncles has become super defensive of wahabis to the point him and another uncle barely even speak),I may have become absorbed by them. I also just have an inclination to experience, even if a little, what the salaf did in an islamic world where they prospered.