I am constantly trying to learn; I believe in using reason and intellect to understand the world around me. Moreover, I was very close to becoming a Muslim. Two things deterred me from it: (1) the death penalty for apostacy and (2) the irrationalities - to me anyway - in hadith (I've only read the Quran and half of Bukhari). I took a week "vacation" and thought about Islam and my life and purpose, and ultimately - for now anyway - decided to remain non-Muslim. I wish I was paid by the hour for being on Sunniforum. That said, I read most of the threads here (some of the topic just don't make any sense to me because I simply don't have the background knowledge to understand) and still think with an open mind. Regards, -Jason