[Hitfaromarf]

With all due respect to those questioning the OPs actions,

You've not been in that situation yourselves, and although we'd all like to believe we would act in a particular way, this is far from what actually happens. People often go into a state of shock and the immediate response is to do with your fitra.

Some are soft by nature and others are hard. Take the diversity among the prominent sahabah for example. There are numerous accounts where Abu Bakr Siddique and Umar al-Khattab (May Allah be pleased with them) held differing opinions regarding the same matter.