[Mehntswx]

im sorry to hear of your situation
something that will help you to deal with this is changing how you think of your situation, firstly your life is not the worst life, there are many many people who are in a far worse situation than you are, sometimes we let our situations make us so depressed that we become oblivious to all the blessings Allah has given us, secondly you can see this as an opportunity to recieve great reward, heping your mother in her time of need is no doubt a very noble thing and Allah ta'alah will reward you immensely