Asalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh, I am nearly 20 years old, I attended an Islamic school and for the most part up until 2010 roughly I was very happy and comfortable with the basic understanding of Islam that I had, all I knew was that I was a Muslim and I should be a good person, pray my salah, fast ramadan, observe the shariah etc. I believed strongly in Allah all I knew was that Allah existed and that He is the most loving and kind, and I believed in the angels and that they could come down to earth and take the form of humans and such, and I knew that there was a world of the unseen and that the jin exist and such, previous to the islamic secondary school I had attended an arabic school every weekend for years and I loved the community there and I was very happy in the environment there. Basically to sum up I just believed Islam was very simple and that we were all Muslims united on Islam and everything was great, the only sect that I had ever heard of were 'shias' and I knew that they were wrong and I vaguely knew that I was a 'maliki'. Anyway in the secondary school I found out later on that the sheikh that we had had was something called a 'barelvi' when I heard about this I didn't really know what it was and I just thought it was another school of thought, he was a wonderful teacher and simply used to teach arabic and also Islamic studies (which was mainly Seerah). Then mysteriously he had left and we got a new RE teacher that used to be quite fun, he used to show us a tv show about people called 'sufis' and how strange and funny they were. I didn't really pay much attention to any of that kind of stuff and I carried on trying to pray my salah on time and be a good muslim in general. Anyway after I had gone to college I kept in contact with my old friends and associates which were all teenagers and everyone added each other on facebook etc, I basically started to watch more and more videos on youtube which were what you might call 'salafi' orientated and read various articles from places like salafitalk and allahuakbar.com and the islamic awakening forums and literally from 2010 to now I have gone from being a happy balanced Muslim into someone who is physically ill from confusion, at times I feel very glad in my mind and a sort of calmness that I follow the Quran in its apparent meaning and I try and follow the sunnah of the prophet peace be upon him and I find all the good speakers and all the 'mashaykh' from madinah university all unified on the same aqeedah creed and following fiqh closest to the sunnah and how salafiya is spreading throughout the youth and how we refute the 'esoteric sufis' and the misguided 'hellenistic philosophers' who use logically derived interpretations to describe Allah, and then I have fully gone down the path of affirming that Allah created Adam with His own two hands and that He has Hands and Feet and a Face and He has two Right Hands meaning they are both perfect all in a manner most befitting to him... then along the way I get surges of confusion and unhappiness because I feel ill that these are incorrect beliefs and that this is in fact all a modernist new-age reformist understanding of Islam and I feel how its so strange that I base almost everything in my understanding of Islam and my deen off Sheikhul Islam Ibn Taymiyya rahimullah and his student Ibn Qayyim al Jawzia rahimullah and then Muhammed ibn abdul Wahab rahimullah and then Sheikh Bin Baz rahimullah, Sheikh Albani rahimullah and Sheikh Uthaymeen rahimullah and the Islam QA website and Islamic awakning dot com. And I've basically come to the conclusion that this is the way to practice Islam best and that Imam Malik and the rest of the great Imams, like Imam Nawawi and such rahimullah had the same creed as these sheiukh teach. but this is because along the way I've attended a couple of what you would call 'sufi' events, one was a Sheikh Nuh Keller suhba and the other was a spiritual retreat for a week with a Sheikh, also I have to admit that of all the people I've come across I've found that the ones that seem to be most sound hearted and aware of the heart and keeping good manners and actually caring about not backbiting etc. were either Deobandis or other people that seemed Sufi, and after this retreat I even had beautiful calm and peace and made beautiful long du'as and quite amazing dreams but then when I got back I got straight back onto the computer and starting going down on Salafitalk dot com and found everything I had gained in serenity was destroyed because I was literally staying up ALL NIGHT reading reading reading scouring through endless breakdowns and refutations of 'deviant sects' and heretical 'ashari' philosophical arguments and maturidis and etc. etc. I felt ill again until I put myself back to just simply following the ahlul hadeeth way I guess you could call it, and by then I had started to go to university and I find the ISoc is basically ahlul hadeeth too so i seem to get along fine and dandy and then i start taking lessons from a sheikh from madinah which I find quite useful and enjoyable and pretty good for fiqh but I find its a bit distant you could say and I don't feel like my Iman is growing but lately I've felt like Ive had quite weak Iman Allah knows best, mainly because I feel that somehow my wudhu might not be valid because I've been wiping over my socks for wudhu very frequently. I felt good because I felt we are the majority theres ONE guy who is an ashari and there are a couple of hanafi deobandi / tablighi brothers that are really friendly and literally never debate about anything to do with aqeedah, only very infrequently mention one or two fiqh things if you discuss it with them, the thing is the ISoc although they are effectively all ahlul hadeeth, are actually quite decent brothers and they're very good in trying to give dawah etc and dont be angry and judge people like you used to find with 'salafis' about a decade ago, I feel literally like its a whole new wave, everybody is salafi these days, only a few pakistani / indians are actually focused on being strict hanafi / maturidi , or the salafi burnout kind of guys you get, which that One ashari I mentioned is. basically recently I've rediscovered some Nuh Keller articles and I was reading them and I read about the history of the Ummah and how apparently the Ulema was mainly ashari / maturidi with some athari Hanbali scholars etc. and i started watching some videos and I felt there was noor and I felt different inside so I made wudhu and wore a nice clean thobe and covered my head and tried to pray my salah as I did when I used to kind of follow the hanafi way of praying, then I prayed my sunnah and I just felt so alive in my spirit and I made a dua and I just felt a good loving connection with Allah.. then I went back to the internet and googled about Sheikh Nuh Keller and found some disturbing articles about calling on dead people and I just felt all that illness again and I just felt horrible, then I read a whole list of people calling it the Keller cult and even people that I have respect for like Suhaib Webb was calling it the keller cult and saying other things, I just felt sad again and confused... My dream is that I just want to follow Islam as pure and beautiful as it really is, I just want to so desperately follow what Islam has been for the past 1400 years, what were the Ahlus Sunnah throughout history upon?!?!?! I am SO AFRAID of keeping company or learning from Deobandi muslims because I am so afraid of falling into being one of the sects, i just want to keep from becoming a member of any sect Ya Allah please Allah guide me.