[shinesw]

Asalaam
http://www.onereason.org/media/The_M...pants_book.pdf. A short book aimed at non-muslims though inshAllah beneficial.

Imaan is from the heart no matter how rational islam may be or how irrational it may seem. LIsten to some qiraat mishary al afasy is good and build up a connection with the Quran, do istikhara for guidance as you have then asked Allah to guide you through authentic and recommended ways.

Some recommended books on the heart by a sound shaykh.
http://www.khanqah.org/books/en.

You are not alone, I myself and many people on this forum have been through what you are going through, with me it was before I was baligh I believed in evolution etc. This was due the education system that was being taught to me, dissalussionment with family and watching tv which influenced me as a teenager to believe everything contrary to Islam. Even if something was plain true of islam to the point if someone showed me a miracle I would have said its a fault of my eyes, this was a gradual process of hard heartedness to an extreme which Alhamdulillah Allah saved me and I kept a connection to the masjid, a person experiences ups and downs in ones imaan based on environment, this happens to me a lot so I have start trying to connect myself with a spiritual mentor through which I derive great benefit, listen to speakers like Abdur Raheem Green as I feel he will appeal to you. I have no knowledge of the family or society environment you come from so thats why I feel somewhat limited. Listen to Qiraat and start to connect yourself to other branches of deen which will keep you motivated e.g. ilm, tabligh, dawah, tasawwuff, hifz. Don't detach yourself from Allah's deen as from experience if I was to live/die in my previous state I don't even like to think what would be the condition of my heart and my soul.

This occurred before I was baligh so I am not advertising sin, refuting science are for someone else from my experience your a teenager who's heart needs to be mended, turn back to Allah once and ask for forgiveness and start a new life, your society,family, money, status won't help a person succeed with real success in this life or the hearafter if there is no imaan.

Are you aware that a True Believer’s Heart (Qalb) is valued seventy times more by Allah than the Kaaba ? He says " If anything can contain Me, it is the Heart of my Believing Servant". It has been said, that if Allah glances at the Kaaba with His Mercy (Rahamath) once in the day, He focuses the glance of His Mercy(Rahamat) towards His Believing Servants Heart (Qalb) Seventy times in a day. Allah Hu Akbar!


Sorry for the long post. Keep in touch please, don't let inexperience drag you down, try to act upon the advices. Ask for guidance and inshAllah you shall be guided.

Shaykh Saleem Dhorat:

“If a person owns a house, then he will seldom admire it’s good points, however frequently look to detect any small fault or niggles in his house [Because (especially in the UK) houses are expensive and it can take a lifetime to pay-off. Houses are generally regarded as big investments]. For this small fault the person becomes restless worried constantly and hoping that this small fault doesn’t become a greater fault becoming a bane and causing misery”.

This made sense to most of the audience and everybody could relate to this example. Shaykh then added;

“Then this is how a Muslim should regard the ‘building of our Imaan’”. [With this Shaykh was elaborating on the numerous faults that a person has within but doesn't concern themselves with rectifying them. These eventually turn into a major faults and go towards even collapsing 'the building of Imaan' - Disbelief (Kufr)].
Asalaam
Your brother in Islam
Abdul Haseeb