[SallythePearl]

Salam aleikum wr wb. I am a revert as u see since 2007 hamdulillah. In 2008 i met my husband that was in Sweden as asyl seeker. His mum and dad and brother live here. I met him on muslima.com. We met just onec before we married. And in public place where we talked just about us and marriage. By that time i was living in Denmark. We married one week after our meeting. he was coming to denmark to visit me and stayed for the weekends. Than he went back to sweden to work. Than he broke his hand and couldnt work so he came to me and lived with me for some months. I got pregnant with our first kid within one month after that. When i was 4 months pregnant, he got catched and tooken to a place before he should go to his country. We decided that he have to leave Sweden without making problems so he will be able to come here again. Living in De I gave birth to our first son 3 months after that. Started to pack and moved to my parents in low in sweden with my son and my daughter from before my husband. We applyed for him coming here ad he did 3 months after my aplication. Than i got pregnant with our second boy. He started to change. Was abusing me verbaly. Started to hit me. His parents always blamed me. The time went i started to find haram sides on the computer, but always he blamed his brother that was living with us as well. I gave birth to our second son. We was waiting for appartment. Than 6 months ago we got it. Hamdulillah. Short after i found out am pregnant. Now in 15 week. Month ago i found out he looked on this sides again. This time he couldnt blame his brother. I asked him why he was doing this to learn things he said. I was broken. For me its like zina. now i find my self checking the computer everyday ... i think he got so clever that he surf in private mode. I have instaled a program to catch him but when he use this in private mode the program dosnt regist anything.
Our marriage is like that. I feel sick and tired of living like that. He sleeps til 9 or 10 a.m., go to shower, leave ... and than comes home to his mum at 5 or 6.p.m. sometimes later. My biggest son sleep by my mother in low, so i spend my time there from noon to evening when i take the little one to sleep. And he comes home around 10-12 p.m. to surf on internet in our bed. Sit there till 2-4 a.m. And so on everyday. He dosnt help with home stuff. cant sit with kids more than one hour. Always threaten me .... call me bad names. tells me i cant do anything. and he is tired of me when we argue. I told him that there is a way out of it ... and its the way he came in, in my life. Sometimes i just want to give up and move on. But than sometimes he is nice and i think of my kids. What to do.? i took him to an imam, he was listening and even said its his foult ... for just one hour later be in his old shoes. He even divorced me many times but than he tells me he made it in a huge anger and he couldnt control him self. I start to think that maybe that we doing haram staying together thats why its like it is between us.
he have changed his phone numbers last 2,5 year like 15 times. He delete his sms. Pls sisters am i the wrong here?.