[PefeFoesk]

Please hear me out.
When i joined college i met this beautiful muslim girl , after a few months we started talking and eventually began dating. Unfortunately we fell into haram and felt guilty and she did too but that didn't stop us. For more than a year we continued this way, everything was perfect but then i had a religious revival last summer and ramadan made me a stronger muslim. I told her that i could no longer be with her because she was temptation for me, and she thought we were going to get married and even though we both made mistakes she was a much better person than me. She felt betrayed and used that I had fulfilled my desires and had thrown her away. I loved her a lot but I did it for the sake of ALlah, I started to pray 5 times a day and even though i struggle with that with fajr, i try my best and i know its absolute importance. But now months later its starting to hit me again, i'm still continuing my path with the deen and am becoming stronger in my faith. But she's in my class and i see her everyday and its drawing me back to be with her again. this time there will be absolutely no physical intimacy, not even holding hands. I just want a companion, i wish i could just have a career already and marry her. But i'm aiming for med school and have a long road ahead. Please advise me what to do with her. She hates me for what i did to her but i know theres still a space in her heart for me from the way she sees me. I'm a horrible person for what i did, because i was the one who made the first move..but i pray to ALlah that my past is behind me now so please i need council on this matter.