I am still here. I didnt come back after my last reply and I don't know why. I started drinking alcohol and about a year and a half ago I stopped feeling that is was a bad thing and that no matter what religion you are from surely god cannot allow it. Personally I have a Sikh and Hindu background. I stopped for a year and a half but I started again last night. Not because I wanted a good time or anything just to get a bit of peace and forget my sorrows. I am not condoning it but it help even just for a few hours....I finally slept last night! it was only about 3 hours but I slept! It has been a very long time time since I have slept. I don't know why i'm here or what i'm looking for but I do know one thing...after sleeping in on the roads for a year and being lonely I feel as if I can speak to someone. You can't imagine how it feels to just speak to someone and get a reply back. I kept myself occupied by making friends with some birds but they don't really reply back.