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Asc,

This my first ever post on forum so I apologise in advance if it is a little hard to read. I wanted to get some advice, I have been feeling a little lost and depressed and worried about the future. I'm in my early 20s and the idea of marriage has been cropping up more and more in my head, I'm in no rush to actually get married however I'm worried if it will ever happen for me. I'm somewhat smart and is known as a geek which I don't mind but you always hear men choose looks over brains, it this true? not that I would say I'm ugly (I don't think anyone is ugly) but I don't class myself as one of the pretty girls either, they're are part of my body I like however lately I can't stop obsessing over the small faults how can I overcome this? also I try to dress modestly, I'm not a 'look at me' type girl, however there are girls like that and guys hover around them all day and I think is that what guys want? also I think its dicey territory when girls and guys are friends, even at university when interacting with guys I keep them at arms length and keep the condensation clean or avoid them when things get inappropriate. however most of the people I know think that its ok to be friends with guys, and I end up being called the weird one so I avoid social gathering simply to avoid the mixing, I wonder how am I going to meet someone without compromising my religion? I'd like to think i'm a good person, I'm not perfect but try to consciously try to better myself in all aspects of my life and be a better person, i guess i just wondering is this enough? and how should I go about finding a good spouse?

jazakallah