[itsmycock]

I been really stressed the past few months. Havn't been going out the house n meeting friends, etc. It feels as if something has overcome my body, esp my heart that feels soo heavy and dead.
Someone had done black magic on me earlier this year b/c i had really abd dreams n a legit Alim told me they were indicating of a black magic spell. He gave me dum water and told me to drink it for 11 days etc. i did that n moved on...

However later in the summer I couldn't wake up on time n sleep on time n have been really neglectful of the Salah n reading the Quran, as if the desire or motivation or even fear of Allah has diminished. I know it is really sad. But the thing is i really feel as if i am no longer in control of my body, have become extremely lazy n unresponsive to doing thing like going to class on time. Always suffering from headaches and depression everyday.

My bro took me to some fake Amil last august who said that there are 3 ppl who have done black magic on me, in urdu 3 bandishain hain tumharay per, i don't know what exactly he meant by that but i figured he was a fake Amil because at Maghrib time he didn't even pray, and was starring at ladies desparately that were his other customers n talking to them very rudely. he had no beard, had weird idols/animals in his guest room, and lots of weird things in his room where he took the "patients" like really long tasbeehs n other weird stuff that he checked his patients for black magic spells, etc. But then I figured he was a fake Amil n left his place n never went back, i heard he wasn't very happy about it. he claimed n bragged that he catches and destroys jinns and a bunch of bullcrap. Is it possible that maybe he has done black magic on me out of revenge?

SO yeah, ever since I went to the guy i have been really sick, don't feel like getting off the bed, as if my body was a burden on me, and i had come under sleep paralysis. my heart feels in sheer pain as if it were dead with no feelings for anyone, i can't even laugh or cry cuz my heart turned into a stone as if some one is holding it or has taken control of it. i dont feel like going to school, friends, trouble having conversation, and have become really anti-social lately.

So last night out of sheer desparation and in pain i began to seek help from Allah swt i started reciting Hasbunallahu wa naimal Wakeel hundreds of time and my body started shivering the more i recited, esp the legs and arms, my feet and pinkies would shake out of weirdness as if they were getting some cold chills, but the more i recited the more my mind felt at peace, and i felt as if i was fighting against my nafs and my whole body while reciting the dua. and after about 500 times that i recited, i felt so much peace in my mind as if something has calmed me totally, and had a really good sleep afterwards.

Is this normal? Has anyone else had a similar experience? Do you guys think I am possessed by a jinn or just suffering from black magic?