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يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُواْ إِنَّ كَثِيرًا مِّنَ الأَحْبَارِ وَالرُّهْبَانِ لَيَأْكُلُونَ أَمْوَالَ النَّاسِ بِالْبَاطِلِ وَيَصُدُّونَ عَن سَبِيلِ اللّهِ

O you who believe! Verily, there are many from the Rabbis and Monks who devour the wealth of the people in falsehood, and deter them from the Path of Allaah. [9:34]

My advice to you brother is reflect long and hard on this powerful Ayah.

The ultimate source of our guidance is Allaah and His Messenger

Becareful about attaching yourself to a "Shaikh" or a "Peer". The Jews and Christians have been misguided by many of their Rabbis and Priests. The Prophet said that this Ummah will follow in their footsteps.

Alhumdullilah it was reading Shaykh Zulfiqars and Shaykh Nuhs writings 5 years ago that brought me closer to Allah and Inshallah i'd like to have those feelings back.

No disrespect brother Abdul Qaadir and forgive me for judging you but I spent almost 4 years hearing what you've just said from brothers who were Ahle hadith/salafi...these sort of comments had an affect on me for some time and pushed me away from tasawuf, I started thinking bad about other muslims (bidah this bidah that!)....but Alhumdullilah Shaykh Zulfiqars words always stuck with me and i started noticing these brothers characters, they were always angry even rude at times. This pushed me away from them Alhumdullilah. but then i spent alot of time just doing nothing in terms of building my Iman. Alhumdullilah I was still praying but felt like nothing was coming from it.

For me a good muslim is he who has the best/softest character and i've found that people who align themselves with "tassawuf" have these attributes.

I humbly advise you to find one of these blessed gatherings and see for yourself. I know theres alot of crazy stuff on youtube but not all sufis are crazy!