[mynaflzak]

As salaamu alaaikum

Im a student still, about to start medical college soon InshaAllah. I have a terrible weakness which im afraid i find very difficult to control.
I find that i NEED the company of a male. its not an entirely physical need- but one which extends emotionally and mentally...iv had this problem for a long time and i want to avoid this problem. honestly speaking- i have had relationships in the past when i didnt know islam properly and fear of retribution wasn't in my heart.
InshaAllah now things are different and im tryin to find a way to curb these strange strong desires.

im doubly afraid because ill be living alone in a foreign country soon to study medicine.i wanted to get married before i go but since im about to start an extremely vigorous educational venture- my parents do not want me to marry early as they fear that ii may mess up my studies.

so what do i do now? im very troubled at heart and i dont know what to do.
please help me.

jazaakallah khair