[Emalodoulouts]

sister rainbow, today there is alot of anti islamic propoganda against islam creating mass level confusion among people including muslims. trying to portray islam as violent, mysogynistic, backwards ect.. put it this way they are trying to potray islam which is everything positive as everything negative. and you should not go to anti islamic websites. islam is paradise and in here you will find eradication of violence and true love for women.

sister shaitan is bothering you right now.oyu need to defeat shaitan. if you read two tasbeehs

1. the prayer of hazrat Yunas peace upon him 100 times daily ( in a state of wudhu): La ilaha illa anta subhanaka inni kunto min azzaalemeen

2nd. read lahola wala koowata illah billah hil aleeyal azeem 500 times daily

also read tafsir of quran. a really good tafsir is al jalalayn by hazrat imam suyuti r.a

your problems should go away.

sister u need to avoid thinking too much.

also ask god to give you ability to stay steadfast in islam till the day you die