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May Allah make ease for you in your time of distress and pain. Trust Allah ta'ala..and ask Him to help your situation. You should seek assistance in your situation from your family, the local Islamic scholars in your area who can sit down with you and question you and your husband and give you sound advice based upon a fair assessment of your situation. If their are no qualified scholars in your area, you should seek out help from scholars who may not be in your immediate locale...And Allah knows best..

Khalil