[horaAppagob]

Hello brothers, I feel so forsaken at the moment, I try to follow Islam to the best of my ability, keep my faith in allah and try to help people however I can. But my life is riddled with failure, things have happened to me out of my control and I feel so defeated. This has not happened once but many times. I would love to give the details but they would reach 50 pages.

I have very little support at home, my mother is the only person who has helped me when she can, but she herself is unwell most of the time and I do not wish to burden her with my problem. I have no father because he passed away when I was six years old. My sister and brother make my life hell although they are 11 and 7 years older (I am an adult) they seem to take a real joy in seeing me upset or in defeat.

How do you have the strength to deal with such life? I know others may suffer worse but im slowly feeling like losing the will to live my life, I'm contemplating running away because i cant take this life anymore