thank you musleemah for your thoughtful responses. You are right i should keep my distance and im seeing clearly what predicament im putting myself into. Wen she asked me if i would take her as a wife i guess old feelings resurfaced. Advice was all i asked. I know i am not mentally sound at the moment hence all these Outrageous plans i made already. Please pray for me and im sorry for wasting all these brothers/sisters time. Jazakamullah-hu-khairan for your help. Salam