bro,I'd like to be of help to you.However there are certain things that I need clarified.Your story about the darul uloom seems just a bit far-fetched and it seems as if somebody told you about their experience at the darul uloom added with some spice which you are portraying as your own experience.If you tell me the name of the darul uloom it will make things much easier,because it seems this is where your troubles began. was salam