brother, thanks for your nice comment. I always try to be patient, but you know what, at the end of the day you have to buy food, you have to pay your rent and tuition fees. can't ignore the bitter truth of life. At first I was crying in my prayer and asking for help. I talk with one of my friend and he said you should not ask for anything which relates to this world. so, I stop asking for anything that relates to this world. Now I always ask for something for after life. But, if I fall in trouble, to whom I can ask for help. Only Allah can help me. So, which one is right? I must have done something wrong or i am still doing the wrong thing. that's why this things are happening to me. I need to know, what is right? what is wrong? I always try to eat halal food. I thought if I can continue this way Allah give me rizik. but for some reason it didn't happened. I help so many people, but when I need help I couldn't find anyone to help me. why? I am doing something wrong...i need to know.