Dear brother haarisa I can feel your pain in my heart and want to offer you a deal. I will make sincere Dua for you for your success, and you make sincere Dua for me (so that Allah accepts my Duas and gives me true piety and tawfiq). Then, once again you go to ask her hand in marriage with your family (mum & dad). If it is her heart that's distant from you, Allah can soften it. If she has someone else in her agenda that she thinks to go for in marriage, and if that's best for her and you, then Allah can remove all these feelings from your heart and provide you with even better - virgin wife. Count you in?