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i get what your saying but really our ibadah and amaal should not be based around another person, we should do good solely and sincerely for Allah. To think everything you have done will be in vain if you lose her is stepping on dangerous grounds, Allah does not owe any of us anything, He does not need our ibaadah, if we choose to obey Him and do good deeds we do it for ourselves. Allah will not let our good deeds go unrewarded inshaAllah

Allah warns of us such thinking:
"And among men is he who serves Allah (standing) on the verge, so that if good befalls him he is satisfied therewith, but if a trial afflict him he turns back headlong; he loses this world as well as the hereafter; that is a manifest loss." (Surah Al-Hajj)

The reason why i would advise you to try and move on is because it sounds like you are basing your whole life around this girl and it seems that she does not feel the same for you. We often think something is good for us but Allah knows better what is good for us so i pray that Allah grants you that which is good for you in this world and the hereafter, Ameen

p.s forgive me if i sound harsh