[SerycegeBunny]

Assalamualaikum Warehmatullahi Wabarakaatuhu

To be honest, I was in a similar situation days ago. But mine was far worse than yours. My relationship was haraam. Anyways, I started doing good deeds. Being good with people, praying, etc. I would keep asking Imaam's, why would Allah not accept a person's supplications, almost every other day. I kept telling them that I do good deeds so that Allah blesses me with her. That is, I was trying to make Him happy so that He answers my supplications. Its not a stubborn request. Its like how a slave tries to makes his Master happy. More happy. And more happy. So much so that the Master asks him to wish for anything. I did in the same way. I was also told that sometimes, there is a mark set to get something. Like - your good deed and supplications needs to reach a certain limit (which only Allah knows) for them to be granted. This was told to me by many Imaams and a Mufti. And I kept doing good deeds to make my Master happy so that He would answer my supplication.

I was told that I would be given something better if not that. I used to reply back saying 'Does not my Lord have the power to do anything. After all, He has power over everything'. So much so that I became a part-time marriage counselor on forums (although I am a software engineer). I would answer to couples who fight or think about divorce, with an Islamic solution. This because I liked to see couples happy together, I liked to unite people so that my Lord would unite me with her, I wanted to make my Master happy so that He grants me my wish. I even kept telling the Imaams that I am not asking for something just worldly. I am asking for a person to be with me in this world and in the Hereafter. So why will my Lord deny it. Then I was told that such is a servant. In Islam, we are asked to submit our self completely to our Creator. Then it struck me that this was a serious test indeed. This is what we actually came in this world for.

Although what other's have posted above is much better than my answer, because you really need to let it go a bit, I personally could not do it. But I do not want you to be in a similar situation like mine. I came across this thread because I was searching for threads relating to marriage and how other people are happy in their lives. I will pray for you, because I know how you feel and I want you to be with her. I really do. I will pray to Allah that He makes her for you and you alone. (As long as it is in the best interests of both you. Sorry, although this is not a good advice at all, but I can't wait for you both to be together with each other Islamically). Do remember me in your dua's as well.

Thank you