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Salam brother,

I don't have much time to go through all the post, so not sure if others might think or say as what I try to say.

From what I can see, you are not fake or unhappy. You just a man. Like many other man who do not know how to show their love and affection. So when they try, they think and they feel it's fake. When they try, it can be seem as it's fake if the woman is a kind of woman who are honest and nor fall into fantasy easily. Which seems what you wife is, how lucky you are.

Brother, it's marriage live. Even if you think because you not connect, it's syaitaan. There are no things such as connect. Marriage even if we feel sooooo connected, but if we don't make effort, the most connection will fail. Simple as that.

Marriage is not about connect or not. Is about putting your desire into halal way. Getting reward by looking after each other and going through test with patient.

What I suggest, is you just calm down, take you time and OPEN your heart. If you close it, it will never get connected ever!

By the way, I was on arrange marriage. When I was ask by my parents, I nearly forget how he looks like because we never actually meet formally. Just coincidently. After 2 weeks my father in law come to see me, yes not my husband who come to see me, we got engage. I was confuse at the time because I never wanted to get married before especially at the age of 19 and still study. We got marriage after 4 month engage and we fight all the way through for years. But, the fight actually cause trouble. Because we got to know each other so deary and after 17 years, Alhamdulillah it was so weird because we seems to get along too much.

Marriage will never work if we don't make it work. My husband was so cold when we first get marriage until I think that only his father that actually want him to get marriage to me, not him himself. It was hard to tell you for a woman, a wife to make a moved because it was so sad in our heart to think that only we, that love our the man and the man never love us back. But, what I learn is that if I don't make a move, than he might not. he's cold not because he didn't love me, just some man do not know how to show the love, the affection. My husband think that if he praise me, or buy flower for me, it's fake. If something not nice he will tell me straight away. It's just how some man are. Only after 10 years of marriage that he be able to say he love me and I could hear it every day now although I might say it to him once a month!! Man!! They are weird creature!

So, you are not fake, not unhappy, just you didn't know how to. You know she nice, you know you do not want to divorce her actually. Just you think you didn't connect because you just cold man. it could take years to improve. But, if you want to improve now, you can pretend sometimes or can learn how to pretend. Than the love will build up. We woman do love fake sometimes....!! Just to make us feel better! Why not. You got reward by pleasing you wife and tell them you love them although you think you not.