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Jazakum Allahu khair.

You see, what I know is that his friends were not so religious. He also had an atheist friend, but when he was practising he told me that he let go of the bad friends. I also heard that he used to have religious debates with this atheist friend of his, I could see something wrong, but of course I couldn't imagine in my head as to what was going on. I had no idea that he went to the extent of doubting and leaving Islam. When he stopped praying, I thought maybe he is going through some serious weak imaan...he still seemed to love Islam and although we advised him to pray etc, he wouldn't. He was very punctual for salah and prayed them all in the masjid al hamdu lillah. I remember he even had a little plan for Ramadhan, he seemed to be doing good. He went to taraweeh every night and one day that just stopped. Everything stopped. My mum became a bit desperate and kept on telling him to pray. He never told us what happened, my mum once called over his old ustadh to talk to him. He objected and refused to see him- then I heard him use foul langugae against the relgion og Islam and he was so angry...I had never seen him like that before. I noticed and thought to myself, he has probably left Islam. Slowly, slowly it became apparent, he started to reject Allah's attributes of mercy and etc...then I asked him and that's when he confessed.

My mum took it so hardly, she was crying so much. I told her that he isn't a Muslim anymore, but she couldn't take it and I think she refuses to believe that he isn't a Muslim. My brother even does not want her to know as it will break her heart and there will be chaos. So my mother keeps on telling him to pray and all of this is a joke to him now. He has once "prayed" jumu'ah under pressure. He tells me now that he fits into society and that he has friends or the like. He thinks he is more social.

I remember he was very angry that he was probably the only teen in the masjid and that the Muslims in school were not so practising. He wouldn't talk to me about his problems, he would just sit alone. We were kind of tight, he would listen to a lecture and willingly type up the notes for me or explain to me something he learnt from the masjid, just he didn't mention his problems.

My mum is practising al hamdu lillah and my dad isn't so much. My brother was stuck in a way, he says to me now that while he was practising he was far from his father etc. It has been difficult for both us, I felt distance with my father at a point, but I think I am almost over that al hamdu lillah. My mum was very strict and she used to sometimes become very harsh on my brother when he had become irreligious, this probably affected him. My parents' relationship wasn't so strong, they used to confilct so much because of religion. My brother noted this and I jsut grew to be quiet and a little unsocial, later on I found Allah after a long journey, al hamdu lillah. My brother followed me, he became influenced by me and started practising al hamdu lillah. When I wasn't practising I had big dreams to study medicine and my brother looked up to me for that, but now I just want to do this basic degree and settle down inshaa Allah. He thinks religion has made lose my potential, that I was capable of so much and now I am not willing to do that much. He doesn't understand that it is 100% my will and my heart isn't into secular education.

Now because of this issue my parents have started to reconcile, but my brother says to me that now when religious issues are not discussed in the family, we are a happy family. He thinks before we weren;t, due to the religious conflicts.

This is the detail I can provide, jazakum Allahu khairan.